Skin Colour

Assalamualaikum

Hey Hi Hello

Have you guys tried listening to a podcast? I’m currently exploring this podcast world. Trying to find what interests me, what to listen to. I love storytelling, conversation-like podcast but I do not prefer to ‘over talk and over laughing’. I’m not sure if it is the correct terms. So over talk, for me at least, is like when someone gets too excited, they will talk louder and breath heavily. Over laughing is just like the words, over laughing. Honestly, I am that kind of person who talks louder in the middle of a conversation when I got excited and laugh a bit too much when something is funny BUT in a podcast, people are using some kind of microphone (I don’t know technology) that makes these type of sound too much for me that I can end up getting a headache (especially because I usually use earphone). Also, I’m quite picky about the voice I want to listen to. I don’t know how to explain it. Everyone has their own taste in music and it is the same with voice.

My introduction is too long. Sorry about that. Long story short, last week when I was getting ready and wanted to listen to a podcast while I’m at it so I scroll my Spotify account, looking for whatever title that catches my eyes. Found it, click it. Not interesting enough, scroll again. Found it but still not interesting enough so, I kept on scrolling until I found the one. The podcast name is “Weird & Wonderful by DOPStv” by Iman Azman and Amal Azman. Check them out if you aren’t already. I listened to them from when I’m getting ready until I arrived at work. Two topics that are so close to my heart are “How to Adult” and “The Colour Concept”. For now, I want to talk about the second topic. The Colour Concept. The speakers basically talked about how they felt about their skin tone which is dark, how Malaysian perspective about fair and dark skin, how it affects them, etc. Go listen to them if you want to know more. It was very interesting on how relatable it felt as I’m also a dark skin person and I want to share my own experience and thoughts on that topic.

Growing up, I always think of myself as an ugly person. I don’t like to take pictures of me alone and even look at my own picture. I’m dark, not skinny and not pretty. During primary school, I really want to brighten up my skin. Maybe not as white as snow but a few shades lighter. So, I look up at products that claim to whiten your skin and the naïve I am, I believe in them. I tried a few products and one product that stand out the most because they always marketing their product like; “Use this product and you shall be a few shades lighter in 7 days “. Can you guess? It was the same as the podcast shared. Moving on. I tried and I didn’t see any difference. Maybe I should give it more time so I bought another one. Still, nothing happened (I’m not rich so the products I bought were cheap anyway). At that moment, I kinda lost hope yet still looking for more (not buying any though). In the podcast, they said that Malaysia typically fond to fair skin people and I agree with that. Previously, when I think about pretty girl, I thought about fair skin, skinny girl. In my school, this type of girls is a famous one and every boy want to be their special someone which somewhat affect my confidence and how I saw myself. I never really think that anyone gonna like like me and I’m not really bothered. But yeah, I still daydream about the ‘what if’ and all those imaginations.

I mostly agree with all that was discussed in the podcast. Now that I am an adult, I still have the same insecurities. Let me just clarify that although I feel like I’m not attractive because of my dark skin, my body size, my voice and all that, I don’t think the same for other people. Meaning, I don’t think that all dark skin people ugly or only skinny people pretty. NO! It just how I see myself and I know that I shouldn’t. My way of coping with insecurities is simply not thinking about them. I focus my attention on other things that make me happy and sometimes I looked in the mirror and I think that I’m beautiful (rarely but I’m happy whenever that happens). Compliments from other people help too. But in the end, it is you that can help yourself. I don’t know how to give advice because I obviously struggle with it but I know that everyone is beautiful in their own way and you should know that too. You have to believe that YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL.

Ok bye.

The podcast;

Spotify: Weird & Wonderful by DOPStv

Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qu6yRQFXi84

2019 Resolutions?

Assalamualaikum

Hey Hi Hello

How 2019 treating you guys? I hope everything’s great. I got my first scold from my boss the first week. Haha. It was my fault and it took me two days to get it right. Life advice; if you are not sure or something seemed off, don’t make an assumption! Especially if it is a life-changing decision. I used the wrong size of containers, they didn’t fit their box and the shipment was at the end of the week. Therefore, I had to scoop everything out, melt them, pour into the right container, put them in the fridge for an hour. For 90 pieces of balms. Only using 2L beaker. The shipment ended up delayed because of me. So I am not exaggerating when I said it was a decision that could change your life.

Moving on. Resolution. I have a couple of resolutions in my mind and I’m planning to see if I could have done any in January before listing them here. Well, that didn’t work. I didn’t do anything. Damn. So I’m contemplating, whether or not I should post them. If by the end of the year I couldn’t achieve even one, I’m gonna be embarrassing myself. All of my resolutions can be achieved if I stop being LAZY! It kinda likes my year-round resolution. It's so bad that I genuinely think if I’m not as lazy as I am, I would be in a better place and do great things. Not saying that it is bad where I am now. Hmm. I think I’m gonna list it out but blur the words and each time I manage to do it, I’ll reveal it and explain what it is all about, why I’m doing it and how I achieve it. Yeah. I think that is a good plan for now.

Ok bye.

Continuation of 2018 Summary

Assalamualaikum.

Hey. Hi. Hello.

Let’s continue with the 2018 summary. Btw, happy new year guys.

So after those damn problems, my life somewhat went back to normal. No more life-threatening, brain exploding problems.

I finished my internship in July and present it to the lecturer in the same month. Now, the adult phase began. Job hunting (not so aggressively) started while still working at the same fast food place. After a week or so, my supervisor at my intern place contacted me and asked if I want to do a part-time job there. The job scope is the same as the internship. I accept. I thought my friend also got the offer, unfortunately, no. I felt guilty as she was the one who found the job and told me about it. The guilt was unbearable. Even after I was offered to work there permanently. Well, she did tell me that it’s ok but still. I tend to overthink stuff that related to feelings and guilt toward other people.

Starting this month, I’m a permanent employee (woot woot). Therefore, my adulthood began. Aqilah’s definition of adulthood: not a student anymore. Well, at least as degree student because I want to further my study but not now. Work for a couple of years first. I already have a student loan and to take another one is not something I desire. And I’m not from a rich family that can afford my study. I start making my own money after SPM (like most of the kids). No more allowance, not that I asked for it. So with my own money, I continue my study; matriculation and university). Well, I still have some leverage here and there. My sisters support my daily sh*t; bills (house, electric), grocery, food. My salary is for my own expenses like the motorcycle, phone’s bill, etc. When I was a student (not so long ago), I worked part-time at the workplace where I worked since SPM, McD. But only during the weekend, not frequently, just so that I have enough to pay for the motorcycle. Other expenses were using PTPTN money. Each semester I tried to save about 40% of the loan just so that I saving for an emergency. Let me tell some life advice. No matter what, always have some saving because you never know what will happen.

Well, that’s it I guess. Hmm. I want to write a new year resolution which is not something I do because I never achieve them so why bother. But this year I want one. Why? Because by the end of this year, I want to look at it and see if any of it achieved. And, I was actually inspired by a youtuber; Amber Scholl. She is someone I never thought I would like because of her extraness (a little too much for me sometimes). I'm very entertained by her. Maybe I’ll make a post about youtubers I watch.

See ya.

My Rants for 2018

Assalamualaikum.

Hey. Hi. Hello.

How’s life, guys? I hope everything is well.

There are only a few more days left before 2019 and I feel like 2018 goes by really fast. So this is about my life in 2018. Hmm. More like problems I encountered early 2018.

Early this year, my family faced some difficulties. But there is one problem that messed us up mentally, for me at least. I thought my life would never be the same again and in the smallest part of me, I want it to change. I kind of mad that we (my family) still remain the same. It’s like the problem is there and all of us know that it exists but we decided to just ignore it. It took me a few months to ignore it and the only reason why I finally chose to ignore it because I still love my family. ‘Air yang dicincang tak akan putus’ right? Besides, I really don’t like to overthink (it hurts my brain) and I know that the person who caused the problem would not listen to me (as I was the only one who couldn’t ignore it) so, conclusion? IGNORANCE. I hate it so much but I just too tired and stressed as new problems came up. Oh, by the way, this particular problem happened around February.

What is this new problem that stressed me out that I made me choose ignorance? Internship! Here is some background of my uni life. I’m a Chemistry (Forensic Analysis) student. It is a three-year course which equals six semesters. Our final year project (fyp) starts during our fourth semester and ends at the fifth semester. The last semester is the industrial training period.  Training supposedly starts on 05/03/2018 until 21/06/2018 (16 weeks). As usual, we have to find the internship place ourselves. In our case, whoever wishes to do their internship at Ibu Pejabat Polis Kontinjen (IPK) and forensic laboratory, our supervisor would arrange it. I interested in doing my training at the forensic lab so, I gave my resume to him. Mind you that he said those who chose forensic lab did not have to worry and he said so many times that we would get accepted. I am not worried at all; I didn’t even think about it. All I think about is my fyp. Oh by the way, for IPK and forensic lab, the internship date starts on the 19^th but the period remains the same; 16 weeks. Times went by and there is still no update from our SV. On 06/03/2018, my heart crushed. I was working at the moment (at McD) and my friend who applied at the same place as I am called me. It wasn’t busy so I pick up the call. She asked me if I have read the WhatsApp to which I said no and she said that we were NOT ACCEPTED! Honestly, my heart stopped for a second. So, I hung up, read the text and immediately message my SV. Can you guess what he said to me? He said, “Don’t worry just find another place”. WHAT THE ACTUAL F*CK DUDE!! (I'm not cursing at my lecturer, just an expression) At this very moment, I have less than 2 weeks to find a place, to be accepted and to start training. My mind was not at my workplace. I couldn’t even function properly. So I told my manager that I couldn’t work the next week because I wanted to focus for my internship hunting. 4 weeks gone. Still, have no place. I’m so screwed. Ugh. Fortunately, my friend (who was called me) got accepted and supposed to start on 09/04/2018 and she told me to apply at the same place. I am so freaking grateful for my friend and would never forget what she did. I got accepted as well.

I am so stressed out during the whole 4 weeks. I’m not sleeping well, I’m not happy, and I always think of the worst case scenario where I was forced to push up my industrial training to next semester. That is something no one wants. If I was to extend my study period, let it be because I failed a subject or two and not because I couldn’t find an internship place which wasn’t even my fault. Ok. You might say, “You the one who ‘lepas tangan’ or you should always check with your lecturer or you should have a backup plan”. Alright people. First of all, I am not mad at my lecturer or 100% blame him for whatever happened, honestly. I’m more scared than mad. From what I can see, there are three sides to blame here; PDRM, my lecturer and me. The one who decide to not accept any student for IPK Selangor (did I not mention that they also got rejected) and forensic lab (only my friend and I applied for this place) was PDRM. The middle person was my lecturer. Basically, my lecturer needs to compile all of our resumes, transcripts and cover letters before sending them together to HQ. The process that took hell lot of time was for the PDRM to decide whether or not they going to accept us. The PDRM may be very busy and I didn’t even know how many stages it need to get through before they decide. Also, we did ask our lecturer multiple of times for any updates which either he just seen the text or replied,” Don’t worry. Those applied for IPK Selangor need to search for another place in case not accepted and the others have nothing worry about.” Well, he is a very busy person and I couldn’t blame him or push for an answer really. He just lost his father around that time. So..yeah. I also at fault, I guess. I should at least have one place in mind but then again the lecturer said not to be worried and risk of not to be rejected was very very low. Conclusion: always have a backup plan.

Currently, I’m working at my internship place. Only me. Why and what happened to my friend? That is for another long entry. I didn’t expect this to be a long rant. I wanted to summarise my 2018 year in this one entry but meh. It already too long. 

See ya.

Life As A University Student

assalamualaikum wbt

[sila jawab ye walaupun dalam hati]

sekian lama daku menyepikan diri kini aq kembali..huhu

alhamdulillah aq dah pun tamat belajar di matrik bulan 4 yang lalu dan telah pun berjaya memasuki U yang mementing dan menjaga hak anak2 melayu dan bumiputra..dah boleh agak kan aq dapat mana..dalam Malaysia nie ada satu jek..

dan sekarang sudah pun 2 minggu aq bergelar mahasiswa UiTM Shah Alam

setakat nie hidup agak ok

dapat roommates yang ok boleh kamceng

dan aq dah pun mula ada assignment, tutorial..nama pun datang nak belajar kan so elakkan merungut

UiTM nie sangat besar..fakulti aq pun besar..sekarang pun masih sesat lagi..ayo

hari first pendaftaran aq dah kena masuk kelas dan masa nak cari kelas sangat2 menstresskan

ya Allah..dah la aq sorang jek pastu bangunan pun xkenal lagi..masa tu rasa nak nangis nak balik xnak sambung belajar dah [kalau korang nak fikir aq gedik ke apa ke sukati la sebab masa tu memang aq dah penat gila]..sejam kot aq merayau kat tempat yang sama

3-4 kali tanya orang dan akhirnya berjaya juga..nasib baik

so..hehe..xjadi balik

nak cerita pasal course aq amik pun macam xsesuai lagi sebab aq masih baru..tu kena tunggu 2-3 sem la kot..haha

akhir kata 'mahu seribu daya, tak mahu seribu dalih'

adios~~

hiperbola lebih tapi x buat juga

assalamualaikum wahai manusia2 sekalian

salam 1 Malaysia

maaf seribu kali maaf kerana daku bersikap hiperbola..ampun!

bak kata orang kampung aq, cakap x serupa bikin

busy with student life? cliche bebeno alasan tu

sebab bukan 24/7 busy kan..cuma 2-3 minggu kebelakangan nie la busy manjang

pensyarah2 semakin kejam T.T

seminggu straight aq x tidur pukul 2 lebih jek..insomnia sekejap..haha

selalunya tidur dalam range pukul 1 pagi..

tidur lambat sejam lebih dari biasa menyebabkan aq diserang sakit kepala [xtau la migrain ke apa]

since it's not good for my health, now i tried to balance my schedule tapi nama pun kehidupan seorang pelajar kan so nak xnak kita redha jelah

sebenarnyakan entry nie dah lama aq simpan dalam draft lah nie baru ada kesedaran nak sambung..hehe
laptop rosak dan seperti tidak mahu dibetulkan jek...kakakku sering memberi harapan palsu kepadaku T.T
aku kan pemalas orangnya so amat la jarang pergi ke library..sekian lama xjejak


untuk pengetahuan korang yang ingin tahu pasal kehidupan aq, aq sekarang sedang berada disaat2 akhir sebagai pelajar KMS..bulan 4 last kot..haishh terasa sekejap sangat [ayat nak poyo] dulu nak cepat abis belajar sebab stress tapi sekarang nak lambat2 sebab nanti xjumpa member kat sini dah..masing2 duk jauh..hehe..niat x ikhlas seh aq nie
setiap pertemuan pasti ada perpisahan..memang lumrah kehidupa


sampai sini sajalah entry kali nie..lama dah dalam draft so..adios!!

kisah UPS, Raya dan outingku

Assalamuaikum

Wuhuu

UPS dah berlalu..alhamdulillah

Tapi risau tetap risau

I don't think i'd done my best in this exam..ayoyo..apalah nak jadi dengan aq nie
Hmm

Whats done is done
Biarkan jek..nanti baru meraung
Now what i really wanna talk about are things after ups
Ups habis hari Khamis
Jumaat ada sambutan Hari Raya Perdana
Kitorang kena hias booth pastu buat rumah terbuka tapi kami pelajar SM3K3T1 buat rumah tertutup gara2 keridak cukupan makanan..agagaga
Madam Nashima aka our mentor pun cakap xpayah..keke..makan kitorang2 jek..pergh cantik
Masa nak mula hias, semua xde idea
So kami pun melangut sejam dua
Lepas tu baru idea datang mencurah2..haha
Tapi booth tu x la secantik orang lain punya...buat kerja last minute kan..lagipun kitorang makan kitorang2 jek..huhu
Program start dalam pukul 3 petang..awal2 tu ada sikit kesulitan dan kestressan tapi lepas tu dah ok dah..seronok!
Aq terjadi hiperaktif lak..hehe...aq makin becok sekarang nie..xtau la kenapa..peralihan cuaca kot..huhu
Tapi sayangnya chief kitorang xde..dia ada pertandingan ragbi so xdapat la nak join...kumain jeles lagi dia..hahaha..

Besoknya aq outing!!
Hehe..nie memang betul nak hilangkan stress UPS..haha
Ku pergi KL jek..pergi dengan Isha, Maya dan Balqis..sepatutnya Nadia ikut sekali tapi dia ada program jadi hanya kami berempat
Penat tu memang penat la kan tapi best
Mula2 tu kitorang pi KLCC..merayau2..dalam pukul 4 lebih, family Isha sampai dari Perlis..
So merayau lagi la kitorang
Plannya kitorang nak duduk kat hotel murah jek yang tarak bintang..berlambak kot tapi ayah Isha pi booking hotel yang ada star2...kitorang dah rasa x sedap dah..nak bayar tapi diorang xnak terima..segan
Xde benda pun yang dibuat sangat..merayau jek banyak..huhu..kitorang gerak balik KMS dalam pukul 3 [kot..hehe..xingat la]
Pengalaman baru kot..insya Allah ada rezeki kita outing lagi...

Dalam aq keluar jalan2 tu, Jujaa [roomateku] tinggal sorang dalam bilik..Gegirl pun outing..sian dia..dah ajak tapi dia xmau ikut..nasib baik malam ada orang teman tidur sekali
Haihh...buat risau jek

Banyak gambar kat Maya..aq xamik lagi
Dan entah mengapa aq xdapat nak upload gambar..
Niat nak share gambar sebab nak korang jeles tidak termakbul..tu la niat yang x elok lagi
Hehe..
Itu saja dari saya..adios!!

My first UPS

Assalamuaikum wbt

Apa perkhabaran semuanya?

Aq dekat sini sihat terlebih sudah..asyik makan jek

Mungkin sebab masa cuti raya hari tu aq asyik kena paksa makan dengan ibu kot..along pun dah buat ikrar nak jadikan aq gemuk balik T^T

Bukannya aq nak kurus sangat [nak kurangkan chubby jek..hehu] tapi duduk dekat matrik nie x boleh membazir..karang hujung bulan tara duit kebulur la jawabnya

Tanggal 12 Ogos aq akan menghadapi UPS [Ujian Pertengahan Semesta] aq yang pertama...seram wa cakap lu
Dah la aq nie jenis yang suka study last minute..atoii
Duduk matrik pun x berubah lagi perangai aq nie
Tapi aq akan terus mencuba! Ya itulah semangat yang kita cari2
Doakan aq ya..

Macam2 sebenarnya nak kongsi tapi..hehe
Cukup la aq cakap aq dah selesa kat KMS nie, dah rapat dengan budak kelas dan aq akan berusaha untuk fokus belajar..insya Allah..pastu..hmm..cerita yang lain2 tu nanti la eh..kalau dapat seruan aq habaq ok

SELAMAT HARI RAYA~~

assalamualaikum wbt

pejam celik pejam celik dah masuk hari raya ketiga pun

rasa baru semalam jek aq habis spm..hahaha [auta lebih]

raya nie aq x rasa semeriah tahun2 dulu

ada banyak faktor

antaranya sebab tahun nie aq xde baju raya T-T

kejadahnya semua ini!! hari raya tapi xde baju raya?!! OMG!!

haihh...xpe la..nak buat macam mana..plannya nak ibu jahitkan baju raya tapi ibu x sihat jadi terbengkalailah baju raya kami

along lak xnak belikan [abang dengan adik jek ada baju]

dan disebabkan kat matrik setiap hari pakai baju kurung so xla terkilan sangat xde baju raya

pada tanggal 2 Syawal dalam pukul 1 pagi..aq telah pun bercerai...perghh

bukan sebab mencurangi mahupun dicurangi..kitorang berpisah cara baik

aq tau aq xberapa nak bercerita pasal dia kat sini

cukup la korang tau yang dia seorang yang baik dan memahami [xboleh puji lebih2 karang lain jadinya] dan tipu la kalau aq cakap aq x sayang dia..kan..

tapi apa boleh buat..

aq cuma nak berterima kasih kat dia sebab sudi sayang aq yang gila nie, sudi dengar rungutan aq yang entah apa2 nie [tangan kena pisau sikit pun nak ngadu..gedik lebih], x tidur sebab teman aq buat assignment walaupun bukan kat depan mata dan macam2 lagi

TERIMA KASIH!

sila la cari perempuan yang lebih baik

i don't deserve you

[sori la aq berjiwang kat sini..bukan buang tabiat tapi izinkan aq coretkan sedikit luahan hati aq kat sini..kalau ada yang rasa meluat ke nak termuntah ke janganlah baca ya nak tutup terus pun xpe]

orait enough with the drama

dah nak UPS dah nie..belajarnya tidak2 lagi..assignment x sentuh lagi..adoii

last but not least, aq mohon ampun atas segala salah silap aq, bahasa2 kasar, kata yang menusuk kalbu korang..i'm sorry [tunduk 180 darjah..huhu]

selamat hari raya everybody

disamping kita bergembira jangan lupa selitkan doa dalam solat kita untuk saudara2 kita di Palestine

with that i thank you

adios!

I KMS STUDENT

Assalamuaikum w.b.t

Salam sudah diberi

Baru molek nak story

Ececeh..berpantun2 lak kita

Pergh..lama gila x menggila kat sini

Niat nak aktif kat sini lepas spm x kesampaian

Apalah masalah aq..nak cakap xde masa, berlambak jek masa aq yg terbuang

Mungkin seru x nak datang kot [eceh..ayat nak cover sedangkan malas]

Aq dah sebulan lebih menjadi pelajar KMS

Dashyat x..hehe..aq pun macam x percaya jek dah jadi budak matrik..PST lak tu..perghh!! Sakit woo..

Tapi aq dah pilih jalan nie so we go with the flow~

Jangan nak banyak songeh..susah memang la susah, x dinafikan aq pun merungut juga tapi bagi aq belajar kat mana2 pun susah x kira la U ke IPG ke Matrik ke apa ke..

If you want something go for it, work it out..jangan tahu nak merungut jek..memang x bergerak la kau der

Alamak bertazkirah lak aq kat sini..huhu..aq nie hiperbola jek lebih..cakap x serupa bikin..maaf la ya

Bak kata orang kampung aq, cakap senang buatnya tidak

Ok berhenti.

Orait

Aq sebenarnya nak cerita serba sedikit pasal kehidupan aq kat kemes nie

Almaklumla aq nie xpernah duduk asrama jadi memang seram sejuk la aq mula2 nak masuk sini

Tapi alhamdulillah semuanya berjalan lancar

Budak bilik aq pun agak sekepala dengan aq

Sorang orang Pahang, Hajar namanya..tapi dipanggil Jujaa

Sorang lagi orang Kedah, Aaina tapi aq panggil dia gegirl

Dan aq lak diorang panggil boboy...duhh

Aq kumain berkeperempuanan, ayu, lemah lembut lagi comei..xpatut2 [x faham aq dengan diorang nie]

Aq pun dah mula ngam dengan classmates aq..diorang dah tahu dah kebecokan mulut aq lagi2 masa nak minta duit..haha..i'm a treasurer [kaching2~~]

Setakat nie xde la masalah global yang melanda aq

Belajar laju sangat tu memang la..nama pun fast track student kan...redha jelah

Oh ya..aq dah tau camne nak balik Damai naik transport awam..

First time balik [awal puasa hari tu] aq balik dengan member tapi kitorang pisah dalam bas..balik kitorang jumpa kat Klang

Minggu lepas lak aq balik kemes sorang2..gila kan..seram memang seram la tapi dah terpaksa..awak terima jek

But overall best la..aq rasa aq dah besar..haha..bangga jap

Pengalaman beb

Adios everybody..

Ps : salam nuzul al Quran [maaf ler lewat sehari]

X sabar nak sambung belajar

Seriously
Kalau dulu x sabar2 nak habiskan form 5 nak buang buku cepat2 tapi sekarang terbalik pula..x sabar nak belajar balik..nak pecahkan kepala otak berfikir..nak stress sebab kerja x siap buat last minute
Tapi aq x dapat sebarang tawaran lagi..sedih kot
Aq cuba x berfikiran negatif..yet the thoughts of me not getting any offer are disturbing..annoying
Oh ya aq x share pun aq dapat berapa kan spm..huhu..aq dapat 4,3,2 jek
Alhamdulillah xde yg gagal
Rasa menyesal tu tetap ada tapi past is past so we have to look forward..discover our future
Aq masih lagi seorang krew McD..dan aq rasa seronok kerja walaupun kebanyakkan yg sebaya dengan aq dah berhenti..tinggal 2-3 kerat jek..ish3

Macam2 sebenarnya aq nak cerita..pasal cherating la, melaka la tapi banyak yg aq dah lupa
Atoi
Menyesal x share awal2
Haha
Adios

Along punya penangan

Dah 3 hari berturut-turut aq tengok wayang
Semuanya sebab along
Bukan x suka malah rasa beruntung sangat dapat akak yang camni
Kelmarin tengok Sejoli..best gilak wa cakap lu
Layan habis
Semalam tengok Robocop.....lagi ==" [dah dua kali de..haiyo]
Dan tadi kitorang tengok cerita Nonstop..best!
Hahaha
Pastu pi makan steamboat..nak meletup perut aq dibuatnya
Mana taknya pi dua orang tapi order cam sekampung nak makan [hoho..nampak sangat kehiperbolaan aq disitu]
Cerita dia memang x habis la kan...adoi
Tula..Nabi pesan makan sebelum lapar berhenti sebelum kenyang xnak dengar kan dah membazir...ish3 amalan syaitan yang diikutnya
Jadi wahai rakan, jangan tiru aksi ini..beringat la ketika berbelanja ya...[ececeh..]

Oh ya
Akhirnya aq telah dapat menunaikan hajat dihati untuk membeli sweater..huhu
Sudah lama dicari tapi tidak ketemuan [cari la sangat] jumpa juga kelmarin...
Sweater kosong berwarna hitam yang berhood
Along juga telah belanja saya kasut..terima kasih along~
Sayang along sangat-sangat!!

Nanti nak pi bercuti lak..adoi..banyak betul plan along
Apa-apa jelah long..alang ikut jek

Ps : aq tengah bahagia dalam gementar nie...hari keputusan SPM keluar nak dekat dah..ayoyo

Suka suki

Assalamualaikum..
Weee~~~
Kita balik Melaka..huhu
Dapat jumpa ibu..jumpa geng dekat dihati biar sampai mati..
Lama x jumpa diorang kot..nak dekat 2 bulan lebih
X puas lepak dgn diorang mana xnya satu hari jek..
Xpe bulan 3 nie aq cuti lama..balas dendam..lepak kaw kaw
Pergi balik rempit...sakit tulang belakang aq..[sampai tertido tido aq atas moto nasib baik x tergolek]
Best kot balik tiba2..haha..ibu xtau pun
Abis kerja pukul 3 pagi terus gerak balik Melaka..gila betul Along aq tu
Sampai Melaka dalam pukul 6..sampai2 terus ketuk pintu macam orang gila [nasib baik x tercabut pintu] masa tu ibu tengah siap2 nak berniaga..huhu..terkejut beliau
Bising juga la..aq malas nak layan so aq pun tukar baju kerja terus tido...[malas nak mandi]
Yang lagi best aq pi terjah Aina dengan Eza...ahaks...
Lepak rumah aq pastu beralih ke rumah Aina..
Kebas mulut aq..asyik gelak jek
Tapi serius kot aq dah lama x gelak camtu...

School is over

Assalamualaikum..
Akhirnya penderitaan aq tamat!! Yahoo~ [walaupun dah habis lama]
Malas dah nak fikir pasal spm..tunggu bulan 3 nanti...

Okey, sekarang aq nak cerita pasal kehidupan aq selepas sekolah
I'm currently working at Mc D Kepong
Serius cakap aq gila punya nervous nak kerja kot..asal nak pergi kerja jek tangan aq sejuk..[wa cakap lu]
Lepas seminggu lebih baru aq ok..tup tup along aq cuti..dah kena pergi kerja sorang2..nervous datang balik..[adoyai..]
Sekarang aq betul2 ok..alhamdulillah..
Disebabkan aq orang baru dan aq x kenal sesiapa pun selain along, semua orang aq panggil akak abang..dulu aq kumain liat nak panggil orang abang sekarang siapa jek yang aq x panggil abang...budak2 sebaya, bawah aq x la aq panggil abang..[gilakah..]

Dan entah camne aq boleh tersangkut dengan salah sorang mamat dekat sana pun x tau la...
I don't want to brag about him a lot because most of blogs I read the one that always brag about theirs when they broke up, they would delete all the articles of oh-my-handsome-angle-like Mr Perfect...[duhh..] lepas tu buat cerita sedih then jumpa orang baru start to brag again and it would go all the way around..again and again..and again...[lantak korang la..blog korang hidup korang]
Lagipun aq kenal dia baru sebulan jadi kita pergi perlahan-lahan

Oh ya..aq nak cerita pasal date aq dengan sayang2 aq..
Kitorang pergi Melaka..huhu
Makan, tengok wayang cerita Penanggal, beli buku, buat cincin, makan, balik...
Ada la sikit kesulitan tapi overall memang best!!
Snap banyak gila gambar..pakai phone Jasmin..hehe
Time balik..aq tangkap sendu..mana xnya hari ni keluar esok aq pergi DD...
Meleleh aq..sedih bila fikir aq yang datang dekat diorang masa tingkatan 1 dan aq juga yang tinggalkan diorang lepas habis spm..

Tiny Bit of Me #6

aq x tau apa bakat aq..aq x reti menari, melukis, suara x sedap..
apakah bakat aq?? anyone?

busy April

assalamuaikum

16/4 - Amiera

tanggal 16 bulan 4 merupakan tarikh Nur Amiera dilahirkan

sori sayang aq x dapat kasi hadiah..

bukan x nak kasi mungkin lambat sikit..

Mie, disebabkan kau dah tua jadi hentikanlah cubitan ketam kau tu..ia semakin hari semakin berbisa..hehe..

walaupun kita berlainan kelas tapi ketahuilah bahawa dirimu sentiasa ada dalam hati, jantung, buah pinggang dan turus vertebrata aq ini wahai sahabatku~

apa2 pun aq sentiasa doakan kau berjaya mencapai cita2 kau lebih2 lagi impian kau untuk berkahwin dengan askar [suka bebenor kamu ye dengan mat botak] dan semoga kau dapat 9A+++ dalam spm - go go Add Math!!

Debat & ALAM

bulan nie merupakan bulan yang sibuk bagi aq

I was so busy with debate..

nak siapkan teks untuk 3 tajuk yang menyebabkan aq ponteng [dengan alasan] kelas tambahan dan x masuk kelas dari pagi sampai petang selama dua hari [17 dan 18/4]..

aq juga x dapat pergi Kem Kursus Kepimpinan dekat ALAM

tsk..tsk...aq pun nak belajar berenang, berkayak..

dah la aq sorang jek yang x pergi

Eza, Iena, Aina, Miera, Jasmin, semua pergi..

bila diorang bercerita sesama diorang, aq rasa tersingkir

x faham aq dengan cerita diorang tapi yang pasti masing2 ada 'abang' [stress aq..hehe..jeles sebenarnya..]

bukan aq x korang bercerita cuma agak x faham sebab tiada penerangan yang terperinci tapi don't worry guys aq akan cuba sedaya upaya memahaminya..

untuk pertandingan debat, ia telah berlangsung 18/4 hari tu..
dan..sekolah kitorang x dapat masuk pusingan ke2 pun..
aq sebagai first speaker rasa bertanggungjawab diatas kekalahan kitorang
target nak masuk final tapi lain yang jadi..
teacher cakap its okay menyebabkan aq rasa lagi bersalah
dah la teacher banyak berkorban : balik lambat, belanja kitorang makan, hantar aq balik [rumah dah la jauh]
haih..apa boleh buat benda dah jadi..
aq harap tahun depan budak2 lelaki tu dapatla melunaskan harapan Teacher Aza..
good luck guys!!
dan terima kasih ku ucapkan kepada teacher diatas segala tunjuk ajar dan pengorbanan yang beliau lakukan untuk kami, budak Rahmat..
akan ku kenang jasamu wahai guruku!

Kursus Anjuran SMK Kem Terendak
sebenarnya aq x ingat apa nama program nie tu yang letak nama penganjur..
ia berlangsung pada 20 dan 21 April bertempat di d'Village Resort dan disertai oleh berbuah2 sekolah..
kat sana kitorang diajar teknik menjawab keempat2 subjek sains tulen yang membunuh..
satu subjek 4 jam..gila kot..tersengguk2 aq dibuatnya..
walaupun macam tu, aq dapat juga sesuatu biarpun tertidur2, bercakap masa add math sampai kena marah..[maafkan kami~]

aq juga telah berjumpa dengan Azani!!
kau tahu..Azani!!!!
sahabat aq yang pindah ke Melaka masa darjah 5 [hujung tahun] dan aq x pernah jumpa dia lagi..baru 20-21 hari tu aq dapat jumpa dia..
Zie dapat juga jumpa dia beberapa kali..hmm..Fatiha, aq x pasti..
sori beb..aq bukan lupakan kau cuma x pasti..hehe..sayang kamu~~
aq x perasan pun Azani ada..
masa nak pergi makan lepas habis slot pertama tiba2 ada orang pegang aq jerit 'Qila!' pastu kitorang dua2 menjerit..hehehe...
macam percaya kot tapi sayang hanya 2 hari..
hmm..kira okla daripada x jumpa..
Zan, aq harap kita akan jumpa lagi, borak2 macam dulu2..aq, kau, Zie, Fatiha..

kesimpulan yang aq dapat dalam program nie adalah :
jangan jadi macam lalat yang langgar sliding door banyak kali sampai pengsan yang kemudiannya dimakan oleh semut..
kalau nak sesuatu yang luar biasa kita kena buat perkara luar biasa..
[kata2 pengetua SMK Kem Terendak]

Adios~

Tiny Bit of Me #5

i love asam

aq boleh jadi pendengar yang baik tapi...

assalamualaikum

salam 1 Malaysia

selama nie aq salah sebab ingat kau xde masalah rupa2nya aq yang xtau..

mungkin juga sebab kita x rapat dulu..

aq x reti kasi nasihat
tapi insya-Allah aq boleh jadi pendengar yang baik
maafkan aq kalau aq x keluarkan kata2 yang kau harapkan yang boleh melegakan hati kau
maafkan aq kalau aq mengeluarkan kata2 yang sama setiap kali kau ada masalah
aku bukan apa aq cuma x tau apa yang patut diucapkan
mungkin aq x mengalami apa yang kau alami menyebabkan aq ketiadaan kata2
aq juga takut kalau kata2 aq akan menerukkan lagi keadaan
kadang2 nasihat yang diberi bagus tapi diri sendiri x mengikuti nasihat yang katakan tu
nak kata aq nie cakap x serupa bikin? cakapla sebab ada kebenarannya..
aq bukannya nak menipu, aq x nak kau jadi macam aq yang terlalu lemah untuk melakukan perubahan, terlalu lemah dalam pelbagai aspek..
hangat2 tahi ayam jek..
walaubagaimanapun aq x paksa kau untuk luahkan kata hati kau dekat aq
carilah orang yang kau boleh percaya yang buat kau rasa selesa


ps : aq sebenarnya dah lama nak post [ceh..x la lama sangat minggu lepas sebenarnya to be exact on 3/4] tapi xde masa la..sibuk dengan sekolah, debat lagi..

snek lewat malam

assalamualaikum

seriously guys aq baru buat benda alah nie tadi and it turned out quite good..

mula2 sapukan kaya pada 2 keping biskut lemak (diatas) dan sapukan sambal cili api pada salah satu biskut tu lepas tu letakkan kepingan yang lain diatasnya..[lebih kurang cam sandwich la]

wahahahaha..

entah kenapa aq boleh buat kerja gila pepagi buta nie tapi keputusan dia x la mengecewakan sangat well, x pada aq..

nanti aq nak cuba sapu sambal belacan pula la..

kekeke..

ps: antara korang faham atau x jek aq punya arahan/resepi..

tahun nie makin teruk!!

assalamualaikum

salam 1 Malaysia

seperti yang korang semua tahu, tahun nie aq spm dan sepatutnya aq sudah pun mula belajar macam nak gila [to be exact it should be done since last year] tapi mengapa dan kenapa aq masih terlampau relaks?!!!
cuti tamat tapi kerja sekolah masih berlambak and you know what, there are homework from February!
this is insane dude!
minggu lepas ada ujian
seperti yang korang semua tahu, tahun nie aq spm dan sepatutnya aq sudah pun mula belajar macam nak gila [to be exact it should be done since last year] tapi mengapa dan kenapa aq masih terlampau relaks?!!!

cuti tamat tapi kerja sekolah masih berlambak and you know what, there are homework from February!

this is insane dude!

minggu lepas ada ujian dan ia merupakan ujian yang paling teruk yang pernah aq hadapi..

i already promised to ibu that i will try my best to get straight As tapi kalau macam nilah perangai, bukan bayang A jek bau dia pun xde de...

entah la kenapa dengan aq nie..