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Have you guys tried listening to a podcast? I’m currently exploring this podcast world. Trying to find what interests me, what to listen to. I love storytelling, conversation-like podcast but I do not prefer to ‘over talk and over laughing’. I’m not sure if it is the correct terms. So over talk, for me at least, is like when someone gets too excited, they will talk louder and breath heavily. Over laughing is just like the words, over laughing. Honestly, I am that kind of person who talks louder in the middle of a conversation when I got excited and laugh a bit too much when something is funny BUT in a podcast, people are using some kind of microphone (I don’t know technology) that makes these type of sound too much for me that I can end up getting a headache (especially because I usually use earphone). Also, I’m quite picky about the voice I want to listen to. I don’t know how to explain it. Everyone has their own taste in music and it is the same with voice.
My introduction is too long. Sorry about that. Long story short, last week when I was getting ready and wanted to listen to a podcast while I’m at it so I scroll my Spotify account, looking for whatever title that catches my eyes. Found it, click it. Not interesting enough, scroll again. Found it but still not interesting enough so, I kept on scrolling until I found the one. The podcast name is “Weird & Wonderful by DOPStv” by Iman Azman and Amal Azman. Check them out if you aren’t already. I listened to them from when I’m getting ready until I arrived at work. Two topics that are so close to my heart are “How to Adult” and “The Colour Concept”. For now, I want to talk about the second topic. The Colour Concept. The speakers basically talked about how they felt about their skin tone which is dark, how Malaysian perspective about fair and dark skin, how it affects them, etc. Go listen to them if you want to know more. It was very interesting on how relatable it felt as I’m also a dark skin person and I want to share my own experience and thoughts on that topic.
Growing up, I always think of myself as an ugly person. I don’t like to take pictures of me alone and even look at my own picture. I’m dark, not skinny and not pretty. During primary school, I really want to brighten up my skin. Maybe not as white as snow but a few shades lighter. So, I look up at products that claim to whiten your skin and the naïve I am, I believe in them. I tried a few products and one product that stand out the most because they always marketing their product like; “Use this product and you shall be a few shades lighter in 7 days “. Can you guess? It was the same as the podcast shared. Moving on. I tried and I didn’t see any difference. Maybe I should give it more time so I bought another one. Still, nothing happened (I’m not rich so the products I bought were cheap anyway). At that moment, I kinda lost hope yet still looking for more (not buying any though). In the podcast, they said that Malaysia typically fond to fair skin people and I agree with that. Previously, when I think about pretty girl, I thought about fair skin, skinny girl. In my school, this type of girls is a famous one and every boy want to be their special someone which somewhat affect my confidence and how I saw myself. I never really think that anyone gonna like like me and I’m not really bothered. But yeah, I still daydream about the ‘what if’ and all those imaginations.
I mostly agree with all that was discussed in the podcast. Now that I am an adult, I still have the same insecurities. Let me just clarify that although I feel like I’m not attractive because of my dark skin, my body size, my voice and all that, I don’t think the same for other people. Meaning, I don’t think that all dark skin people ugly or only skinny people pretty. NO! It just how I see myself and I know that I shouldn’t. My way of coping with insecurities is simply not thinking about them. I focus my attention on other things that make me happy and sometimes I looked in the mirror and I think that I’m beautiful (rarely but I’m happy whenever that happens). Compliments from other people help too. But in the end, it is you that can help yourself. I don’t know how to give advice because I obviously struggle with it but I know that everyone is beautiful in their own way and you should know that too. You have to believe that YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL.
Ok bye.
The podcast;
Spotify: Weird & Wonderful by DOPStv
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qu6yRQFXi84